Set The Board
Set yourself up for hurt
Play a game you know you will lose
Carry a daydream behind the scenes
An unattainable invisible self proclaimed fate
Feel the warning signs
Seeking validations your delirium exists
Over thinking tiny details
Become what you think they want
Trip over your own feelings
Your pain instead of being supportive
Feeling threatened by others
Speak through gritted teeth
Lip service to a real bond
Wait for the hammer to drop
Strike first, end it early
Minimise the damage
Hurt yourself, hurt them, reside in pain
Balled on the shower floor
Warm water hiding tears
Whisky in hand
Silent screams
Hail curses upon yourself
Selfish sobs reserved for the self hated
Hurt yourself as much as you hate yourself
So close to one step too far
Justify it is all for the best
Silence brings back loneliness
Find yourself alone again
Longing remains in your soul
Torture yourself and try to go back
Pleading in the form of beautiful words
Insecurities wrapped in apologies
Exposing yourself as a punching bag
Worthy of inflicted wrath
Hoping for pity, guilt or rage
Drenched in desperate shame
Promise it won't be the same
Set yourself up for hurt
Play a game you know you will lose